Why I Needed to Lose my Way to Find my Way

In-Experience

In the early 2000s when I started this unintentional journey, looking back now, I was unprepared, inexperienced and severely naive. I had a dream, but no real plan or path to reach there, almost as if I was just hoping or daydreaming as some call it.

Armed with just a childhood dream and a lifetime of inspiration as my arsenal, I thought it would’ve been enough. Boy was I unprepared.

The world was very different back then. There were no self-proclaimed celebrities and people who were popular had a reason for being seen, either talent or value.

So much changed with the internet compared to when I grew up, which at the time was still figuring things out, it seemed. Most popular social platforms weren’t around as much or as crucial as they are now and some practices, trends and norms didn’t exist.

Off-Track

However, I lost my way eventually with the things that happened in my life. I’ll probably dive into that at a later date.

Thankfully, over the years, in exile of the pursuit of my dreams, I’ve gained so much experience and expertise in what I originally set out to do. From legal to technical experience to understanding a great deal of how the industry I ventured into, works.

Also witnessing other creators’ progress, whether success or failure, in the same industry, showed me possibilities. Analysis I can use for ideas and practices, even predict possible outcomes, almost like simulations.

Not saying that I’m bulletproof or there’s no chance of failure or hiccups along the way, but I won’t go down some roads, thankfully from my gained experience and others.

Confidence and Relentless Dedication

I’m now ten times more potent and capable of seeking these ventures out, which has given me the confidence to pursue this with relentless dedication.

My conviction is stronger than ever and I now have fewer limitations to execute ideas I once thought were difficult or impossible.

Early Challenges and Evolution

In the beginning, I was using methods, practices and systems that would’ve been outdated and nearly impossible to evolve early on. I was so naive and limited in my thinking, it’s a good thing I didn’t continue along that path(s) back then.

Some choices I made due to lack of experience or foresight and I guess the world was still evolving in this field at the time, I might’ve written myself into a corner that would’ve been difficult to escape.

I’m Glad I Failed some Ventures

My surroundings weren’t conducive to creative ventures. Not the way I know it now and understand what it takes to be truly creative and passionate about the pursuit of art.

Even the people around me were not conducive to my progress and the evolution of my dreams. 

Opportunists helped kill some of my ventures which I now refer to as side-ventures. They were not my dream, although I worked feverishly on them. In hindsight, it’s probably a good thing it went down like that.

It helped me learn a few lessons about fake friendships, fake romances, fake interests, fake partnerships, and opportunists and how to spot them.

It’s as if I’ve removed some benign tumours and gained the ability to function properly for once. 

Executing Dreams

Dreaming isn’t enough and neither are ideas, they’re a dime a dozen. Execution is 99% the ability to succeed I believe. Why I failed was my inability to execute to make my dreams a reality.

Initially, my lack of confidence hindered me, resulting in a failure to execute or complete processes effectively. I now have a better understanding of so many things it’s amazing.

Working out the Kinks

Those side-ventures also helped me work out some issues I would’ve faced along the main venture, potentially causing significant setbacks and probably derailing the success of the overall venture. So I’m grateful I was able to avoid such outcomes on the main journey.

In the process of working out the kinks, I gained valuable insights into potential pitfalls and nuances, allowing me to fine-tune my approach and fortify the foundations of the main project ensuring a more robust and well-prepared path forward.

I’m so grateful I didn’t stray too far off-course otherwise I might’ve lost my way altogether like I’ve seen many do. I’m grateful was able to find my way back.

It feels as if I set out to build a straw house, and came back with the knowledge, ability and fortitude to build a city; almost like I was meant to lose my way to find my way.